Time Flies

One year ago this week an unsuspecting doctor told me I was pregnant with Baby J.

That was quite a day...

I was sick as a dog and finally decided I needed to go to a walk-in clinic after throwing up 30 times before noon. So, off I went.

After having a 15 minute convo with the Doc about my PCOS and inability to get pregnant she decided to run a pregnancy test anyway.  Two minutes later she came in and told me I was having a baby. I couldn't believe it. In fact, for several minutes I asked if she was serious. She probably hated me. Because then? I burst into tears and began rambling about the many reasons why I wasn't ready.

That poor doctor listened to me cry for five fifteen minutes.

I may not have been ready then, but now? Now that we are four months into mommyhood I know I wouldn't give it back for anything. As I sit here bouncing my little man in his chair his kind eyes remind me of his dad and his sweet smile melts my heart every single day.

One year ago I thought my world was over because I was pregnant before my planned time frame and now I feel like no amount of time could prepare me for the magnificence that is motherhood.

Thanks for changing my world Baby J, it's more beautiful now that you're in it.