Thursday, March 15, 2012

The Closing

As I began the draft of our closing statement last week I could feel the irony in every key. There I sat typing up the last piece of the very case that carried the span of my time with Firm W as I myself came to the close of my chapter with the firm.

Funny how life tosses in little moments like these.

Today, I began my last day at my first big-girl job.

I'm a ball of mixed emotions.

From elatement, to sadness, optimism and concern for what the future holds and the security of what I'm leaving behind. I am all over the emotional scale.

I can't lie, I'm scared. There are so many what if's flying through my mind. My nerves just can't seem to be settled.

There is no doubt that today will bring tears. Tears of joy for what the staff here has taught me. For the compassion they've shown me over the last year. The lessons they've taught me not just as a paralegal but also as a young adult and new mother.

One co-worker specifically is going to be tough to say goodbye to. Ms. H, has been my rock. She's my go-to for all things daycare, pediatrician, marriage and of course work-related. She is the woman who {almost} single-handedly taught me to be a paralegal. I owe her so much. More than anything I owe her friendship. As I move on from Firm W, I hope that we remain friends.

I could go on about how each person in the office has meant something different to me over the last year {and a half}, but I just don't have it in me. I've been coming back to the draft version of this post for a week now and seem to be at a loss. Quite frankly, I'm just done.

I'm exhausted from the crazy week we've had here at work. I'm exhausted from the baby who has refused to sleep all week. I'm exhausted from the nerves that have been my stomach lately. I'm just exhausted.

So, I'll close this chapter here.

In 11 days I'll start a new job. The first job I've ever had to interview for. The first job that has found me, my resume and wanted me to join their team because of my credentials. I leap blindly into the unknown praying He will see me gracefully into this new chapter of life.

Here goes nothing....

9 comments:

  1. Erin,
    I have missed out lately but I send you the best friend!!
    Saying a prayer for your new journey!
    (((hugs)))

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  2. You got this girl! That was faith is sometimes right--leaping blindly. But really it's not blindly because you know He's right there by your side.

    Praying for you and sending warm thoughts your way. Then next week is the big week right???

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  3. Ohhh...Erin, I know how hard it is to close one chapter in your life and begin a new one! I know you can do this!!! And not only will you be able to do this, you will ROCK your new job! MsH will always be there for you, I am sure. So, take a deep breath, and say a prayer. Everything will be great!
    Hugs and prayers my sweet bloggy friend!

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  4. It is always so hard to close a chapter and begin a new one. I know that you'll do wonderful on your new journey!

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  5. Change is always scary but good! And it is hard closing a chapter in your life and starting a new one. Good luck friend you'll do great!

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  6. Awe hon, I know the feeling...I personally HATE change. I don't do well with it...but good things will come out of it, and you will do just great in your new chapter in life!
    Kyna

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  7. You will be ok! Change is a necessary evil :)

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  8. Good luck girl, you'll be great.

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  9. You can do this girl! Its a good change and I am so proud of you!

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