The Way You Are

It's evolved so much over the last 11 months.

People can tell you a million times, but the fast-forward button really does click when you have kids. I never expected this though. The magic of it all.

Seeing you as a tiny newborn, much smaller than any of us expected. Much more precious than I could've ever prepared for. In those first few days with you our hearts were moved.

As we spent the weekend playing and giggling it became real. You became real.

I realize J is 11 months old, he's been real this entire time. But the baby I had just a couple months ago is no more. The handsome bundle around my house can no longer be categorized as a baby. He's a toddler.

Now don't get all excited, he's not walking yet. Not entirely at least. Just a few steps from one couch to the other. Nothing post-worthy quite yet. But we're close.

The toddler I'm referring to is not within J's physical abilities, but his personality.

It's changed.

He's different now.

In just the last eight days I've seen it.

The way he wakes up is more gentle. Yeah, we still deal with the come-get-me-now screaming, but once he gets to our bed he coos and purrs, you know his special blend of talking.

How I know things have really shifted? My independent baby is now laying his head down to cuddle! No strings attached the kid just wants some loving! I have been waiting for this moment for 11 months and now it is here. And you know what? It's somehow better than I imagined it!

I always knew he was a loving kid, which is why I've never understood his disdain for a good snuggle. Toddler J is showing his colors though and he's a sweetheart.

My calendar read March 1, 2012 the other day and a piece of me began to mourn. It is officially my baby's birth month. In just a few short weeks he'll be one. I'm not ready to reach this milestone. Looking back on photos and details makes my mind reel.

And then Toddler J appeared for a sneak peek and I'm even more in love. If these gentle, loving mannerisms of late are any indication as to your character then bring on the next year. I cannot wait to see more of that angelic little dude.


  1. Nolan now wakes up without the screaming too...must be part of getting older. It is amazing how they grow in personality every day! :)

  2. such a sweet post. i totally know that feeling all too well.

  3. In the blink of an eye right? E has recently started snuggling her head on my shoulder too. It's the sweetest thing, and waving bye bye and high fiving. I so miss my baby baby, but I would never have wanted to miss out on my toddler baby.

  4. Aw- I feel the same way. I just put up Z 11 month picture today and was thinking, where did my baby go!

  5. They do grow up so fast don't they? It just keeps getting better and better though as their little personalities start to develop as toddlers! :-)
    ♥ Kyna

  6. What a great post! Man, someone should have warned us that time moves at warp speed once you have a baby! Baby J is adorable! Enjoy those snuggles momma!

  7. My favorite line - "I'm even more in love." I love how in the moment you are and yes, we miss the baby stage, but gosh they have so much to offer where they are at every state!

  8. What a sweet post about your little love.


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