Tuesday, October 9, 2012

The Quarter-Life Crisis is Upon Us

If we're really being honest, it hit me back in May. I can't quite put my finger on it, but something happened one day and it just clicked. I'm going to be 25 this year. Well, this year has quickly dwindled to, uh, two days ago.

I've awaited this month, this milestone. Typically, I love my birthday. Nothing big ever really happens, and I don't insist on going crazy. But that day? Just always feels special. This year is a different story, though. I've had an unsettling feeling about this birthday. 25. Twenty-Five. TWENTYFIVE. For the first time I feel "old."

Lately, I've been stepping back, looking at the big picture and reflecting on my last handful of years. Where I was. Where I went. And where we're going. Because let's face it, there's no more I around here. 

Despite pondering this birthday for essentially the entire summer, I still can't wrap my head around the fact I'm now 25. Re-runs of life have been playing in my mind for months.

Leaving for college to start a new chapter.

The heat of the Alabama sun as I sit on the bleachers yelling Rammer-Jammer surrounded by the sweet smell of whiskey and Denny Dogs at my first ever Alabama Football game.

The rhythm of Brandon's band playing the first time we met.

Joy of choosing the first place we'd live together.

Life as a college student making her way through journalism school.

The rows of books I inhabited as a recent graduate still living her life in the library preparing for the LSATs.

Newlywed-life: sorting out the realities of days together.

A young woman terrified of what the future holds as her faith in God waivers.

My heart healing as Brandon and I grew together and wrote our latest chapter, parenthood

Vividness of these days make it hard to fathom all this bundled into my years.  So quickly, these moments passed me by becoming my narrative. And now? Through the mess of our toddler-owned house, an overflow of love can be found. Some days you have to squint to see past the bursting teething-toddler frustrations, but it's there. Knowing this, I welcome a new season of life a wiser soul.

8 comments:

  1. I'm 29 now (gasp!!) but I remember the days leading up to my 25th birthday and I felt this strange sense of now being old! I too, couldn't put my finger on what it was or why I was feeling that way but I knew that I couldn't claim to be "in my early 20's" anymore. It was such a strange milestone.

    ...you'll quickly get over it as you approach your 26th birthday! haha.

    Happy Birthday!

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  2. Man you are getting up there! I'm totally kidding, Friend. I'm glad that you are welcoming this new season because I have really enjoyed 25-...um, now. :)

    College days were by far the best, but these days hold so many different activities, emotions, prospects. I appreciate this post as a reminder of all of our ages and stages.

    Happy Birthday again!!

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  3. Oh my goodness, you're going to think I have 1 foot in the grave! I am <6 months to 30 but it makes my heart happy. I'd rather be getting older than the alternative!

    Happy early birthday!

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  4. Holy cow you young whipper snapper! :) I believe as soon as we got to college life just starts to fly by---and then after you have kids it's like on fast forward. Happy birthday girl!

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  5. Happy Birthday! I think you've TOTALLY got your life together at 25! When I was 25, I was recently unengaged and a law school dropout. Luckily, things have gotten better in the last two years!! You've got so many years with that adorable little boy ahead of you! :)

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  6. First of all, I'm almost thirty, you youngin' you! :) I definitely know how you feel though 25 was for me, weirder and more different than any other birthday. I think I dreaded it and looked forward to it more than my 30th!

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  7. Happy Early Birthday!! You must think that 30 is ancient (I'm going to be 31 this month). Twenty five is the year your car insurance goes down!! You have so much wisdom at 25, way more than I did for sure!!

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  8. Happy Early Birthday!! You are a young in'

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