In the freshness of 2014, I vowed to do it for Him not myself. I vowed to be intentional in the Word and in drawing near to Him. Rather than making lists of what I could do through my work, I made a list of what He was already doing through me.
What a perspective it is to look back before we move forward. It's not the works we've accomplished that matter, it's what He's already accomplished for us on the cross that matters.
We shouldn't go through life expecting to see a multitude of blessings if we move on each year without intentional reflection on the last 365 days, yet that's precisely what I was doing. By flipping the script on my annual planning in 2014, I charged into a year that would become my most fulfilling to date.
I walked through 2014 ready to press into any circumstance He presented with open arms. Over and over again, He called me to a place of contentment and joy in 2014.
His nearness carried me. His sovereign hand my faithful explanation for the fallen world we live in. His answered prayers throughout 2014 could not be ignored. His presence was felt, and I'm left in awe.
But still, I seek. Still, I thirst and knock and go to my knees before Him praying to be filled again. His voice whispered all too often the same resounding message: Surrender. All of it. Not just this dark part or that dark part. Surrender it all to me.