"Failure will get you further than fear," that's what Lara Casey told a room full of women last May. Hopeful as I sat on the edge of my seat looking to glean the spark God has set ablaze in her. Failure will get you further than fear.
I teetered on the boundary line of my comfort zone and acting in obedience. And there she was, this petite, darling red-head speaking what He'd been telling me for weeks: "if He's called you it, then do it." We can come to Him just as we are. No need to tidy up all those messy parts of our lives before approaching the throne. His love welcomes us broken, His hands ready to cover us with grace and send us out with hope.
A few years ago I walked into a storm that would break me in the most beautiful way. By accepting a new job I found myself tossed into the tides of a legal battle that would teach me the greatest lesson of my life: He orchestrates beauty from brokenness.
Month after month we forged forward using our gifts to pursue justice in the storm. Yet, day in and out more people were pulled into the wake of this storm with no light in sight. My heart clung to the justice system with a steadfast faith until one day it broke into a million little pieces. Right there in my little office I fell to my knees sobbing, looking to the Lord with empty hands, heart surrendered to His will.
Broken but not forsaken.
In our brokenness, He is able to work good. From the depths of our brokenness, He writes a story of grace. In that place the we've declared a 'bad season', His Gospel is the Truth that declares us victorious.
Let it break you. When we see the world through the lens of the Gospel it will break you. Going through the motions doesn't please Him, but when we come to Him with the broken pieces of our heart, He's able to begin the good work in our lives.
He delivers us from our fears, and gives us opportunity to walk in His ways. It doesn't have to be flawless, it just has to be done, humbly. Let's bring ourselves to the Cross broken, allowing Him to mend us and send us out to build for His Kingdom.
At our best, in our brokenness, His love never fails. I want my brokenness to sink into Jesus' presence and not just rest there but be propelled outward to share this Gospel love with others. All the coffee and hustle will never fully fill me if I'm not seeking Jesus first. Because of the Gospel we can hustle and not grow weary.
His loves allows us to hold ourselves to a standard of grace not perfection.
Loosen the reigns bit by bit until you've fully surrendered them to Him. It's okay to be broken. Let His word speak truth over you, friend. Heart-shattered lives are best prepared for His will to be done.